Katnmouse Knitter

Easter

2011-04-23T22:04:00.000-07:00

Wow it has been awhile since I have written on the blog. I have lost 20lbs. so far this year and have quite a few more to go. I'm working hard and have been having a lot of trouble with my back lately.

It's time for another set of shots for my back.

Well it's almost Easter and I miss my granddaughter. I remember coloring eggs with her and Lucy, and oh let's not forget the bunny toy that pooped out jelly beans. It was priceless. lol

Meghan I miss you terribly and think about you all the time. I will never stop loving you and missing you.

Until someday when I get to speak to you, take care my little princess (and yes it doesn't matter how old or how big you get you will always be nana's little princess).

I love you Meghan Crisp with all my heart.

Love Nana

First post of 2011

2011-01-07T13:06:00.000-08:00

Well this is my first post of 2011. I look back on 2010 and hope this year is better than the last.

I am living alone again with just Sandi (my dog) and 2 cats. I am going to make it just fine by myself. Looking forward to the new year and a place I can call my own.

I don't have to cater to anyone anymore. My grocery bill has dropped significally and I'm eating healthier on top of that.

I have lots of friends, lots of knitting, lots of audio book listening, exercising and tv watching in my future.

Work is going good, just crossed a major hurdle in configuring Exchange 2010 to work in conjunction with Exchange 2003 and I have a feeling this year is my year to be me.

Well that's about all for my first post of 2011. Till the next post comes out, over and out.

Jackie Butzbach (Jackson)

p.s. I love you Meghan Crisp

Christmas Presents for Meghan Crisp

2010-12-22T12:07:00.001-08:00

Meghan Crisp my dear Granddaughter this is what nana made you for christmas in 2010.

Your mother refused the package and below I will post where it was refused so that she can't say it was never received.

I love you dearly Meghan Crisp and hope you have a wonderful Christmas and a happy new year.

Someday you will know that nana has never forgotten you and that she will always love you.

I love you baby girl. Nana thinks about you daily and wonders how tall you've grown, how beautiful you are now. I miss you each and every day Meghan.

Love always,

Nana

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Thinking about Meghan Hypatia Crisp

2010-12-13T14:02:00.000-08:00

Not a day goes by that I don't think of Meghan with her laughter and fondness of making things funny.

Something funny happens and I hear Meghan singing "All I wanna do is eat your brains" and it makes me laugh. I see clover in my yard and I think of the time we sent you out to find the 4 leaf clover. Boy did u ever try.

I think about all the food Sandi stole from you. She still misses you.

Out shopping

2010-12-04T15:06:00.001-08:00

Today I am out shopping for Xmas presents and spending time with my friend. We have so much fun together

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Hurting - Meghan Crisp I love you

2010-12-03T15:04:00.000-08:00

Once again I have tried to repair damage to a relationship so that I could just be a grandmother again to Meghan Crisp.

Once again I have been called a stalker and a few other names of which I will post about. For your information GRMcIntyre I do not think Meghan Crisp belongs to me, but I do know for a fact that she is my granddaughter.

I only want to be a grandmother to her and since you won't even talk to me how can we ever get past this?

Do you really think I want Meghan to read all of this someday? No I don't. I'd rather work it out between the two of us and take all of this down.

But I will not let her grow up thinking Nana wanted nothing to do with her. I don't even know if she is getting presents I'm sending.

I don't want to take her away from you I just want to be a grandma. Is that so hard for you to understand? You wouldn't even have her today if it wasn't for me taking you in. I did this because I knew that she needed her mommie.

Yes there has been harsh words between us and hurtful things but I am grown up enough to push it all aside for the sake of my granddaughter are you?

Or are you still bent on so much revenge in the past that you can't let your daughter be loved by anyone but you?

Below are the hurtful words you said about me. Yes I can still see them even though you blocked me.

I really don't Meghan to read this, however Nana has tried and tried and she just wants phone contact with her granddaughter.

Coyo
You know, I'm starting to think my presence on the internet is a bad thing. *blocks yet another stalking account*
Recent plurk responses:

Eponymis jealous of even *that* sort of attention

Surreal *stalks you*

Lippmann the internet is bad

Coyosays Surreal, I wouldn't mind you because you are not a dwarfish butterball psycho freakazoid who thinks my daughter belongs to you. very hurtful to say about your former mother in law who helped you get your daughter back from DCFS when I could've really made it hard on you.

TracerGraves shit, gotta crate another account now

Coyosays Tracer FPRIVATE "TYPE=PICT;ALT=:-o"

Coyosays I thought you were a tall brawny motherfucker!

TracerGraves dunno about tall and brawny, but apparently I like to crate accounts

Lippmann crate it up, ship it out, bro

Wild and Crazy Weekend.

2010-11-08T13:58:00.001-08:00

Ok Dolores and I got crazy this weekend and got tattoos.

I cannot believe I did this. lol

Meghan Crisp

2010-11-04T15:10:00.000-07:00

Meghan,

Nana misses you soo much. I just wanted to let you know nana is thinking about you.

I hope you had a great halloween and got lots and lots of candy.

I love you baby girl.

Love Nana (aka Jackie Butzbach)

Xmas Presents

2010-10-08T09:54:00.000-07:00

Working on some new knitting Christmas presents for my granddaughters.

Meghan and Medea Crisp.

I got to see Medea last weekend and it was nice. I miss Meghan and wish I could see her as well.

Oh well maybe sometime.

Love you both my wonderful Granddaughters.

Love Nana

Meghan Hypatia Crisp

2010-09-02T22:48:00.001-07:00

I found these pictures of you on the web when you were born. Here is the link. You are loved my dear Meghan.

http://members.tripod.com/rowan_crisp/meghan/

I wish I could talk to you my little girl.

High Desert Medical Group Fiasco

2010-09-02T22:40:00.000-07:00

July 2010 See Dr. Win about pain under rib cage and legs sciatic nerve. She pokes a little on my stomach and doesn’t find anything. Pain ends up easing enough that I thought it was gone.

8-29-2010 Visit to Urgent Care for severe pain under left rib cage – Xrays were taken, blood work and urine were done. Results come back negative. Doctor Patel barely pokes on my stomach, allows nurse to give me pain shot in the rear and I am sent home to contact my primary care physican.

8-30-2010 I go in to see Dr. Win and she at least pokes a little harder but then orders The same tests that were ran the day before (waste of insurance money in my book) then tries to tell me that she can order tests but it’s going to take awhile because they have to be approved. I explain that this is unacceptable that I am still in pain and we need to find out what it is. She first tries to tell me to go back to Urgent Care. I then tell her that no I will not go back to urgent care because they will send me back to her. She then tells me to goto Renassance Imagine for a Stat CT scan and then to go home and wait for a call. I get a phone about 4:00 p.m. that day saying that the CT Scan showed nothing. I said ok what’s next. I am not faking the pain it is real and it’s there and we need to find out what it is. Dr. Win has a very thick oriental accent and is almost impossible to understand over the phone, but I though I heard her say that an EDG had been ordered and was approved but they were waiting on an appointment. I received no call later that day for the scheduled appointment.

8-31-2010 8:00 a.m. I called and talked to Maria in Dr. Win’s office. I explained that I was in pain when Dr. Win called me the day before and I have a hard
Time understanding her on the phone and that I wanted her to find out what the next steps were or what we were waiting on and let me know.
She said she would find out and call me back.
At about 10:15 I called Dr. Win’s office back and got the receptionist. I explained about what I was waiting for etc. She put me on hold and came back and said to contact Dr. Win in a couple of weeks. To which I exclaimed loudly that was Not Acceptable that I am missing work and I am in pain and need answers. She sent a message to the nurse.
I then turned around and called Blue Cross to try and find out if they could help me out. They got in touch with Maria and found out that an Ultrasound and EDG had been approved and they were waiting on Appointments. I should not have to call Blue Cross to get that information. That I would get a call within the hour. I got a call around 11:00 a.m. from Nicki (appointment setter) saying they couldn’t do the ultrasound till 9/2. I again said that is unacceptable, I am in pain, missing work and still have nothing to tell my job about whats going on. Nicki called me back with an appointment for 9/1 for 1:30 p.m. because I need to fast. I then got a call from Nicki to schedule EDG for 9/2 at 6 a.m. At around 4:00 p.m. today I finally got a call from Blanca from Dr. Win’s office about the note that was left by the receptionist. I proceeded to tell Blanca that I shouldn’t have to call the insurance to get the information out of the office as to what is being done to find out what’s wrong with me. I was totally unhappy with the lack of communication.

9-1-2010 I went to Dr. Farid’s office today to have my IUD taken out and replaced.
They can’t get it out so that means outpatient surgery. So they have to send off for approval and they are supposed to call me back.
I also had the scheduled Ultrasound done today. I am confused as they didn’t even image any where near where the pain is. I even showed the technician where the pain was and he said he was checking out other organs. I don’t get it are we just running tests to rule out everything before we look at what does hurt? Total mis-use of insurance funds if you ask me. They should be looking at what does hurt, not what doesn’t. Tomorrow they are doing the EDG. I hope to hell that they at least look at the spot that hurts with this test. I am tired of tests and tired of the pain.

9-2-2010 I had the EDG done this morning. They put me out and I didn’t feel a
Thing except being sleepy. The only thing I was told is that there was some inflammation in my stomach. Now it’s hurry up and wait. I am going to try and goto work tomorrow.

I wish I could talk to my granddaughter to help brighten my days. I tried to contact her mother once again the other night. She logged off the minute I texted her. I just want to talk to Meghan. My beautiful Meghan Hypatia Crisp

Meghan I miss you

2010-07-30T15:13:00.001-07:00

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Originally uploaded by katnmouse91265

Meghan I really really miss you. I ran across this picture today when going through my flicker account and realized I had never posted these. I really love and miss you Meghan.

Hugs and Kisses!!

Love Nana

Happy Birthday Meghan!!

2010-07-16T11:39:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Meghan Crisp!! I sent my granddaughter Meghan a pair of hand knitted wool Lace Socks for her Birthday. I really hope she likes them and I hope they help keep her warm this winter and that she thinks of her nana everytime she wears them. I love and miss her. Happy 8th Birthday Meghan. Nana loves you!!!!!!!

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Boss from Hell - The devil is Dead

2010-06-03T16:48:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to say this politely but the world is much better off now that you are gone.

Please do not judge me for speaking my mind here, until you have walked in my shoes and know the whole story behind this you would not understand the harshness of the comment I made.

My therapist has encouraged me to write what I am feeling so I am doing that. This is healing for me as I will no longer have to look over my shoulder and think am I going to run into him?

He can no longer haunt me at work and give me self doubts as to whether or not I can do the work or not. He can no longer cause instant fear in me with his harsh voice or his crude hands as he pushed me and left bruises.

Now maybe I can finally heal from the hurt he has caused in my life.

Out of all the people in my life he has caused the worst hurt. I'm hoping now I can finally heal and come to terms with where my life is now.

I had to get this out in the open somehow some way. I have to finally realize this man can no longer hurt me.

Disneyland Fun

2010-06-03T16:46:00.000-07:00

Ok so I have no pictures but I had a lot of fun yesterday at Disneyland. We met my sister Kim there and hung out and had a really good time. My only regret is that Meghan wasn't there to enjoy it.

I'm thinking about you Meghan. Nana loves you bunches.

Saturday 5/15/2010

2010-05-20T11:03:00.000-07:00

Had a wonderful time and Grandma's Yarns & Notions knitting with my best buds.

Dolores, Dawn, DawnRene, Angie & Nancy. I always have a fantastic time sitting with you guys and knitting.

I even got a finished object noted and a pic put up in Ravelry. I made a pair of child sized booties for Medea Crisp my granddaughter.

I hope she likes them.

Dolores came over about 11:00 a.m. and we had to do a little running around and then I took Dolores out to Olive Garden for her Birthday Lunch. We then found a place that sells yarn from Mexico and picked up a few skeins there. The we went to Michael's and picked up more yarn there.

We then went to Grandma's Yarn's & Notion's and knitted with our friends. A great time was had by all. Yipee!!!!!!!

Missing you Meghan

2010-03-25T15:43:00.001-07:00

Meghan I can't tell you how much I miss you. This morning I was outside and the gardener came and mowed the lawn and there was lots and lots of clover out there.

I grinned and chuckled remembering how me and your mom kept sending you out to find us a 4 leaf clover.

Just another memory I will treasure forever. I love you baby girl.

lots of hugs and kisses Meghan.

Another attempt to talk to my Granddaughter

2010-02-26T15:53:00.000-08:00

Meghan Hypatia Crisp. I tried calling to talk to you again today. Once again, nobody picks up the phone. They are scanning calls to make sure I cannot talk to you.

I miss you baby girl and you will be forever be in my heart. Someday I will see you and hear you again.

I have done nothing to deserve the wrath that has fallen. If your mom is mad at me, she needs to look at herself, not me. At least what I did I did for you Meghan.

I got you medical help when you needed it. I took you back in as soon as I could to keep you safe and out of harms way.

I love you Meghan and miss you with all of my heart.

Love Nana

Happy Valentines Day Meghan

2010-02-14T21:57:00.000-08:00

Meghan nana loves you and hopes you had a wonderful Valentines Day. I miss you baby girl and you will always be nana's little girl.

Meghan Hypatia Crisp - Nana Loves you

2010-02-10T16:09:00.000-08:00

Well today is February 10th. Getting real close to Valentine's day and still have not heard from my granddaughter Meghan.

Life is cruel and so are people that keep her from me.

I hope she knows that Nana loves her with all her heart. I love you Meghan.

January 22, 2010

2010-02-04T14:55:00.000-08:00

I went and saw Medea today. She's finally learned how to put on socks. Big feat for her. She was able to put on her handknit slippers nana made her and I was soooo proud of her.

It's amazing how the little things for her are such an accomplishment.

Today I have decided that I will continue to call and blog about contacting Meghan to talk to her.

Someday Meghan Crisp will be able to read and search and find my websites and learn just how hard nana tried to keep in touch with her.

Unfortuneately she will also learn that is was her mother who kept her from talking to me. I love my baby girls with all my heart.

Regardless of what my Ex-daughter thinks of me or my partner she knows that nana loves her Meghan and would never do anything to harm her.

So today is Febrary 4, 2010 at 3:00 Pacific Time, 5:00 p.m. her time and I tried to call two different numbers and was greeted by voice mail both times. Here are the two numbers I have for Meghan.

773-643-1384 and 661-998-0275 - So Meghan if you are ever searching for me or your name online, you will know that I love you with all my heart and I have tried to keep in contact with you but your mom wouldn't let me.

I love you baby girl Meghan Crisp.

Lost Granddaughter

2010-01-22T16:34:00.001-08:00

Seems my ex-daughter in law has decided that I can't talk to my granddaughter anymore.

She took her out of the state and now won't even let me talk to her. When I have said nothing to her that is wrong, misguided or anything else.

All I want to do is be a grandma.

I don't even know if she let her have the gifts I sent her via UPS.

How can people be so horrible as to do this?

Where ever you are Meghan Crisp I love you dearly.

First Snowman

2008-12-23T08:25:00.000-08:00

My granddaughter is enjoying making her first snowman.

Meghan and Medea School Pictures

2008-12-06T19:42:00.001-08:00

Meghan is in Kindergarten and Medea is in preschool. These two are my babies!!!!

More pics of the granddaughter

2008-11-03T09:48:00.000-08:00

Aren't I a cute little Princess?????? And don't forget I'm a cheerleader tooo!!!!!

My little Halloween Princess

2008-11-03T09:25:00.000-08:00

Halloween was fun for all. All I heard was I need more candy!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Birthday Ever!!!

2008-09-12T22:48:00.001-07:00

I finally got my granddaughter out of fostercare and back into my home. While she is still a ward of the state. She is in my home and I have am the new caretaker via the Kinship program. I am really looking forward to spending time with her. I will post pics soon.

School Days

2008-08-25T07:32:00.000-07:00

Well school starts today so my knitting and crocheting will slow down. I am taking Macroeconomics, Sociology and Math 60 this semester all online.

I hope I can do the online thing and keep up. This will be a first for me. This will be a first for me.

I already checked into my Sociology class and read the first 19 pages of Chapter one.

I've already read the first chapter in my Macro book so hopefully I'll do ok.

Well off to work. No rest for the wicked!!!!

My Granddaughter

2008-08-20T20:01:00.001-07:00

As some of you know I've been trying to get my granddaughter back after her being put into fostercare. I am going through the Kinship program and had my final inspection of the house and it's been approved.

Now we are waiting for the main social worker to do her job, so I can go get her.

We ripped out the spare bedroom that was an office complete with built in counters and I bought her this precious bedroom set.

Above is the bed and above that is the matching desk and dresser that goes with her bed. I fell in love with this set. I am so hoping she loves this.

I cannot wait to see her face when she sees this.

In Loving Memory

2008-07-10T15:38:00.000-07:00

I inherted this beautiful cat 8 years ago from my mother when she passed away. I am sorry to say that Sweet Pea is now back with mom.

Mom take care of her. I love you both!!!!

Knit in Public Day

2008-06-15T10:29:00.000-07:00

KnottyKnitters did Knit in Public Day starting at Carl's Jr. and ending at McDonalds. I learned a great lesson yesterday. Don't ever say "Bite me" to Ladybuglola. She will!!!!!!! It's a good thing I Love her anyways. LOL

Darcy's Contest

2008-06-12T15:55:00.001-07:00

Darcy is having a wonderful contest to mark her 200th post. Please click on the link and tell Darcy I sent you. There are 5 wonderful prizes to be won. I want all of them. :( too bad I can't win more than one.

http://www.darcyknottyknitter.blogspot.com/

Last week of school

2008-05-23T20:04:00.001-07:00

Well I am behind on pictures and my blog. The only excuse I have is Finals.............. Trying hard not to procrastinate, but it's not working too well. Here I am posting on my blog when I should be writing a final essay and would rather be knitting.

I was on a roll and got interrupted and so I am now trying to figure out how to get back on track.

Oh well maybe in a few minutes. hehe

Easy Flame Lace Scarf

2008-05-05T19:52:00.001-07:00

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Originally uploaded by katnmouse91265

I started my Scarf today in whales Road Lace mmmalibrigo. I'm excited to see it finally coming along.

Contest

2008-04-30T07:59:00.000-07:00

Studio Knit is having a contest. Go over and answer a few questions and tell her that I sent you there. We get more chances to win
http://aknittersstudio.blogspot.com/

Members of my Family

2008-04-29T17:05:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I had to live up to my name and put the rest of the pictures of my family on my blog. I have no mouse, but I do have 3 kitties who own me and allow me to feed them and pet them. Starting from The baby - Tu-ee has one blue eye and one brown eye. She thinks she's special because she's the baby. Next we have the middle child - Boo boo She thinks she's the queen of the world. Then we have the Matriarch - Sweet Pea she's approx 9 years old and I was elected to take care of her feeding and petting when my mother passed away in 2000. They all own me and I'm proud to be owned by them.

I am Sandi's human. The cats like to go around saying Cats rule and dogs drool, funny though, they run when chased. hmmm maybe Sandi is on to something.

The Gang

2008-04-27T17:27:00.000-07:00

Let's see we have starting at the left, Leesa, Mel, Mindy, Jamies and Darcy in the background shooting her own pics. LOL

Jamie and Dawn

2008-04-27T17:26:00.000-07:00

Jamie (sorry if it's spelled wrong) and Dawn happily knitting and crocheting away.

Mindy & Mel

2008-04-27T17:25:00.000-07:00

Mindy and Mel having fun at Panera......

Susan

2008-04-27T17:24:00.000-07:00

Susan is doing two sockies on one circular. I'm jealous!!

Knotty Knitter's Meeting

2008-04-27T17:20:00.000-07:00

Had a good time at the Knotty Knitter's meeting today. Even got the all elusive picture of Darcy to post.

Comments on Blog

2008-04-27T11:34:00.000-07:00

Here I have these friends who post comments on my blog. I approved them and they still don't show. Don't know what I am doing wrong. Maybe Darcy can help me at the meeting today.

Dogs

2008-04-22T06:21:00.000-07:00

My 6 month old dog went in for surgery yesterday to get fixed. She comes home today. Poor Sandi. I know it must hurt. She was a whine bag at the Vets office. So much for a big bad tough doggie. LOL Just kidding.

I love the fact that she's a sweetheart.

Updating this to try and add a pic of my baby Sandi. She is also doing quite well. Would never known she had surgery.

Mid-Month Dishcloth Made

2008-04-22T06:19:00.000-07:00

I finished my mid-month dishcloth last night. It's a cool looking pattern even though I think I did something wrong. It doesn't look like the ones on the pictures but it is cool looking anyway. I think I'll keep it. LOL

Sun Dress for Granddaughter

2008-04-14T19:47:00.000-07:00

Ok, so now I'm back to the point where I was when I had to frog my granddaughters sundress. I guess it is time to start on the next step and see what happens from here. At least it is not twisted this time. LOL

Aaaarggggh!!!

2008-04-10T16:09:00.000-07:00

Ok so I just figured out that I have a twist in my circular knitting. So now I have to frog my granddaughters sundress. *Sigh*

Reverse Stockinette Stitch

2008-04-09T22:18:00.000-07:00

Ok so today I learned that reverse stockinette stitch was just purling when knitting the round. Why oh why doesn't the pattern just say purl for the next inch and a half?

Us newbies need to create a new language. "Knitting Latin" LOL Ok so I am off to sleep now. Did some homework and actually knitted some and did one row on my afghan I am crocheting.

Oh and did I mention I worked today too and went to class? No wonder I am exhausted.

Katnmouse's Knitting Madness

2008-04-08T23:07:00.001-07:00

This is place to post about my new passion. Knitting and Crocheting. I am from Palmdale, Ca and share my passion with fellow friends.